Howl of one being torn apart
by cedillefan on Feb 8, 2010 4:12 AM EST
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Then an extraordinary
wail arose . . . ,
a God-cursed scream and strain of catastrophe,
the howl of the loser, the lament of the hell-serf
keening his wound.
Here's the advice that Beowulf gives us for when, like Grendel, we feel torn apart: Don't pretend that it doesn't hurt or try to cope by telling yourself it was just a game. After all, our hearts have just been broken. Let the loss drag you into a dark mire, let it pound at your chest armor with its knife. This is a time for grieving. We can worry about swimming to the surface later.
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Oh it hurts
More today than yesterday and maybe a little more tomorrow than today. A fantastic season coming to a non fantastic end. That hurts. The country happy that we lost. That hurts. The rest of the world not sharing our pain. That hurts. Those out there that do not see what this team accomplished by getting here. That hurts. It will hurt for a while longer. This one is harder to brush off and get up from because we were so close to football immortality. To not hurt would be to forget the potential of this team and the months of brilliance. To forget the heroic accomplishments, to forget the hours, days, weeks, and months of amazing Colts football. Oh lord, does it hurt.
It is not what I expected out of the defense.
Last night after the game, I was a zombie. Today, I feel the pain and I am glad I have wonderful Colt fans like you to share it with. I feel you, and it is normal to feel this way. WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR DEFENSIVE ADJUSTMENTS DURING THE FUCKING SECOND HALF?
by chihoosierguy on Feb 8, 2010 12:47 PM EST up reply actions
Thanks, I really needed to hear that
For the past 12 hours I’ve been trying to be strong, but now I realize that it’s okay to be sad, to be heartbroken, to be disappointed. I guess it’s hard because there’s no one person that I can blame. It was the team’s failure last night, and I have to accept that. The next 6-7 months will be hard without any Colts football. I doubt that I’ll mourn that long. Maybe today, but I have to get over it. But I do need to cry it out.
Peyton Manning makes it Wayne on them hoes!!!!
I think because
we were so good and we had so much potential, it’s more respectful to hurt about this. It would be okay to move on if it was some magical journey.. if we were a Cinderella story. We’re not. We worked tooth and nails to get here. It’s not like the Cardinals last year or the Giants the year before where making it to the SB was enough. It wasn’t and it isn’t. I look forward to next season obviously, but this season’s end deserves to be mourned.
If there is one thing that will keep Peyton hungry...
…it is this loss. We’ll be back.
by The Learned Hand on Feb 8, 2010 1:01 PM EST reply actions
the danger of frozen anger
If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that to push one’s hurt under without acknowledging it just means that it sits like an icy lump inside. There is a lake (or mere) in Beowulf, where Grendel and his mother live, which is frozen on the surface but which burns at night. We may think we’re being strong in the face of heartbreak when we are just being icy numb. The real story is not the outward midwestern reserve but the angry monsters that writhe in our depths. Better to acknowledge them and the hurt—as diagenesis says, it’s a kind of respect to the depth of your attachment.
And then, when we’ve gathered our forces, we can step beyond the hurt and begin cheering again, knowing that, indeed, Peyton will be hungry.
5 stages of grief.
You bring up a good point and this is a great post. One cannot move to acceptance without having gone through the difficult stages in order.
I was going to try to stay away. But I realized that the people here are the only ones who truly know how I feel. I need to be with my people, my tribe. My heart is broken for me, but I feel so horrible for all of the players, Peyton in particular AND Mudd. And thanks for the reminder that we need to acknowledge what an amazing accomplishment getting to the SB was this year. No Bobzilla, No Marlin, No Gonzo, etc. So we had essentially 2 rookie receivers and 2 rookie cornerbacks and made it all the way to the promised land.
I’m so very proud of this team! They didn’t have a great game last night, that’s all. It’s the character of this team that makes me proud to be a Colts’ fan.
"I throw, you catch. It's NOT that hard!"
Peyton Manning, SNL, 2007
by peytonsthebest on Feb 8, 2010 7:51 PM EST up reply actions
football immortality
Please! Spare us the melodrama
Then again,
what are sports about if not melodrama? The thrill of victory, the agony of defeat, as the Wide World of Sports used to put it. Are you one who rises above violent mood swings when watching sports events and walks away calm? Or do you just not like talking about it?
a follow-up thought
If we were going to forego melodrama, we might as well close down this site. What is so wonderful about Stampede Blue is that everyone gets to work out their heartbreak in their own way. Some vent against certain players or coaches, others express gratitude to the Colts, some try to be level-headed and tell us to look to the future, others aren’t willing to go there yet. In short, it’s a real community. Are you going to go to every post that uses exclamation points and tell the writer to spare us the melodrama?
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